spiritually excited and tired at the same time

Haha is it possible to be spiritually excited and tired at the same time?

I'm super psyched out to serve in G-Kidz today, even if it was just for a day. It was a good experience haha and I'm so glad that we were able to put across what we needed to teach, and more importantly, to be able to put it across in such a way that the kids understood - Huiting: Babe, if you're reading this - JOB WELL DONE!! Thank God for ya babe! You caught the baton everytime I was lagging haha. Hope that I will get to do again with ya soon! heh brainstorming about a modern version of Luke 12 yesterday and this morning was fun!!

Haha just jumping and singing for God in omega room 1 made me feel like a kid back in sunday school again. God brought back some unhappy memories but it was for a good reason and I'm glad that He did. I remembered how back then in primary 4, back in my family church, COS, I just simply couldn't click with the rest of my friends in the same level and would sometimes just hide in the toilet for 2 hours or wander around in the building, until my mom finished her service, feeling that loneliness, that helplessness, even though I knew that God was right there with me all the time. Through this, I could understand how the kids might be feeling and to take notice especially during the entire process. But just as I was standing there, I felt God's heart for the children, a burden heavier than before, now on my heart.

Jesus loves his little children
All the children of the world
Red and yellow, black and white
All are precious in His sight
Jesus loves His little children of the world

Jesus really loves every single child He brought into this world. He does so much.

Yet at the same time, other issues at hand bog me down. Committed it all to God at the altar and He showed me a super corny scene. But the word that He spoke to me through Jiarong was the best - "Beautiful". Hahaha not about myself la (but of course, I am beautiful =P) but something that God has blessed me with, which is coming to a year in mid-Sept (haha ppl who know what I'm talking about will know what I'm saying). And the anointing from God makes me feel even more burdened now. God, rekindle the fire. Strike the spark once more in us. We wanna make it last. Set our hearts ablaze. And God, guide me to do the right thing at the right time.

Many reflections to be done. Will blog another time soon.