Thanks Ps Yo, Sharon, Yoke Yeong, Jang, Eunice, Huiting, Wendy and Reina for coming yesterday (in two batches somemore) hahaha. And all the verses. I'm gonna dwell on them these few days in addition to the ones God brought me to during qt these past few days. And also for answering the questions I had. It's so sudden that no one saw it coming. It's been hard dealing with it but I know that my family, especially my dad and uncles, need more assurance than I do. This sense of loss is just so new and foreign to us, we never saw that it would happen to my grandma. But I sense a freedom in my spirit knowing that my grandma is resting safely with God for some time to come heh. And thank you guys for your care and concern and your presence there just made me feel so much more relieved. And thanks AudOne for praying! and everyone whom I've not mentioned. heartfelt thanks to you. :D:D:D
I thank God that even through this difficult situation, that He uses me as a light to shine in the family, even though I'm not shining very brightly right now. I'm doing my best, heh, but I think I suck at it. Feel very inadequate. Hahaha. But I guess it's not about how i feel but what God wants me to do. heh. Am holding onto His hand each and every moment. I thank God for creating me to be an optimist hahahaha, and blessing me with that simple child-like faith ever since young. Lord, I pray that You will help me to be even more so especially now.
And I thank God also that He is using this situation to bring the family closer together than ever. I learnt more things about my uncles this couple of days than I have in my whole life! HAHA. All the hilarious NS stories that my dad and my uncles have. (haha darren and wj, if you're reading this, you won't believe that what you're going through is really much easier than what they did, hahaha. my dad was in the pioneering batch of NS k. He had to shine his boots until he could see his own reflection in it.) And omg. My 3rd uncle set up a band with his cell group mates called "the Psychedelics" in the 80s and even performed on Talentime (SBC talent show in the the 80s). OMG LA. And he sings and plays the guitar (this i knew, cos i saw his guitar many times but I totally forgot about it). To think that I thought no one in the family would understand why I'm in a band. BUT omg la. This is so significant. In two ways. That God was already sowing seeds in the family from long time ago and that there are singing genes in my family!! (Should've known when I caught my grandpa singing at the top of his voice along to oldies) HAHAHAH. God, I thank You for giving me this time to interact with my uncles whom I've not caught up with for a very long time. You made me realize how much I miss being doted by them when I was young. And all these memories that have been pushed to the back of my mind for so many years. :D:D:D
And I am comforted by how God had already touched this family ever since the time of my great great great grandma (my grandpa's grandma), that she was the light of the family, who brought my grandpa, my dad and my 3 uncles to church when they were young. Lord, I pray that they will experience the reality of Your presence in their lives in a way they've never had before as they seek the answers to questions they have right now. Lord, I pray that You will never let anyone of them go until they've experienced Your love. Lord, I pray that You will watch over each and every one of my family especially during the wake, let not the evil one deceive us, that God, You will keep watch over us spiritually, mentally, physically and emotionally. Lord, help me to stay strong and intercede for my family in this time and to be discerning of all things. In Jesus name, I pray, Amen.
Please pray that I will have the courage to even talk to my grandpa about Christ when I visit him in the hospital later and that God will even go ahead to soften and melt his heart to receive His love, His assurance and His compassion. That my grandpa will remember how God touched his heart when he was younger. That God will even open the opportunity for me to even talk to him one on one and that I will not hesitate when I see it. Lord, help me to be bold.
Lord, I claim the victory You promised for my family in:
Deuteronomy 1:29-31
29 Then I said to you, "Do not be terrified; do not be afraid of them. 30 The LORD your God, who is going before you, will fight for you, as he did for you in Egypt, before your very eyes, 31 and in the desert. There you saw how the LORD your God carried you, as a father carries his son, all the way you went until you reached this place."
Romans 8:28
28 And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.
Psalm 72
Hosea 14:4-7
4 "I will heal their waywardness
and love them freely,
for my anger has turned away from them.
5 I will be like the dew to Israel;
he will blossom like a lily.
Like a cedar of Lebanon
he will send down his roots;
6 his young shoots will grow.
His splendor will be like an olive tree,
his fragrance like a cedar of Lebanon.
7 Men will dwell again in his shade.
He will flourish like the grain.
He will blossom like a vine,
and his fame will be like the wine from Lebanon.
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