the little girl

It's 3.45 am right now. Was talking to God just now. Haha.

Haha super duper happy. *BIG SILLY GRIN*

He opened up my eyes to certain struggles in my life and it seems like He loves me more and more each day, you know, when actually His love for me from day one is as much as it is now. He brought to mind my favorite scene to tell me of His love just now:

I am sitting with God on a bench in a beautiful garden in Heaven. Dressed in a pretty white doll dress. God is playing with me, with my dolls. He reaches for me and hugs me.

But today, God brought it further. He pointed out to me that little girl in the scene had blond hair and blue eyes. That I needed to replace that girl with myself so that I can really experience His love.

At first, it was hard. I tried to imagine myself as a little girl. Haha but thank God He brought to mind images of myself when I was a kid. With bangs and all. Hahahahaha. And that little girl changed. Now complete with black hair and black eyes and bangs. In that pretty frock. Haha. And God reached down to hug me. Wow. And He brought to mind this verse I saw on VCF's noticeboard in school:

Jeremiah 31:3 "I have loved you with an everlasting love; I have drawn you with loving-kindness."

Everlasting love leh. Wow.

And guess what. I found these pictures:

^This was the girl that God wanted me to place in that scene in the garden. Haha. Pretty bangs and cute dimples eh? But dress a bit on the short side eh? Err.. apparently I like to do curtsies. Did I mention that I loved to perform in front of my family? I loved to dance and sing for them. HAHAHAHA. Now I realize why I've never had stage fright. (i.e. I used to love attention.)

^Hahaha my dad's hair looks like a mop. omg. He reminds me of Moses in "Prince of Egypt".
But I am super cute lor. No need to put on lip gloss. My lips got natural gloss. Haha.

^Haha this is my 4th uncle. And again, I am super cute caaaan.

Haha eh I realized my eyes weren't that big eh? And I looked like I had single eyelids! Which I don't!
And yessss.. I was super mischievous when I was a kid. That twinkle in my eye, my cheeky grin and that sneaky look in the second picture combined to give that secret away right. Haha too bad... I was the baby of the house for 5 years and I had all the attention. Spoiled to the max la. heeeees.

And it's 4.25am. Time to sleeeeeeep!