confused but yet at peace

There are so many things going through my mind right now I can't list them all. But yet I know I can trust my Lord.

God is so good. This dry, parched land that needed His living water, He freely gave to me, when I called out to Him. I once again learned how to delight in His word after 20 Psalms. Psalm 1, the beginning. 20 Psalms in between that I felt I was reading out of duty. A period where I felt so much spiritual dryness mainly because I read them out of duty. Psalm 21, today. It's my attitude that I need to change. Not His word. Without a doubt. His word is flawless and delightful and God speaks through EVERY word. It is my mindset that I have to alter. It is time that I need to devote to reading His word and to spending time with Him. It is discipline that I need to learn.

Psalm 1:2 "But his delight is in the law of the Lord, and on His law he meditates day and night."

I surrendered my Isaac today to God on another level. Brought him before God, hugged him, then entrusted him into God's hands. Watched God walk hand in hand with him away from me. I cried. But somehow relieved as well. God then came back to me and I held hands with Him. I've yet to completely let go of this Isaac. God knows. But I'm learning to let go more and more. God is patient.