I'm trying to make a clean break here. But somehow I can't seem to. I just wanna cut it all off. i wanna get out of it. don't ever wanna see what i don't wanna see again. but i can't seem to.

why is it that we are always the ones who are hit the most? why is it not them?

God, i'm snipping it off. but this pair of scissors is too blunt. why do u put it right there and yet take it away?

This week I also realized that i'm too soft with kids. i give in to them too easily and i don't follow through with what i say many a time. i just find it hard to deal with conflict. i run. not just with kids. but with adults as well. with friends. i tend to just compromise on what i really think is best, keep my mouth shut even if i dont think it's right, and lie to the person's face, for the sake of avoiding conflict and for the sake of not wanting to displease the person. with kids, i'm scared that they will cry, or that they will not like me. God, i know that this is an area that You are working on in me. Help me to understand why i'm like this, so that I can change. I don't like this side of me. I want to be myself.