ahaha. i said i'd be back to post more last Sunday evening. but i didn't. gosh. it's been crazy this week. had my first clinic week at work. this is what i call "test week", 'cos every clinic is like a test. i have to show the parents what we've been doing with their children, in front of the case supervisor and at least one other colleague. but surprisingly, it's not as tough as i expected it to be. Thank God for the favor i found with parents and the confidence to freely speak to the parents about each child's progress, that I was so surprised at it myself. I was never a good public speaker, especially when it came to presentations for school projects. I believe it was definitely the Holy Spirit at work in me.

Gosh. it's the end of another week and the start of the next one. yesterday was a really good day of just resting at home from sickness. if only i could sleep 14 hours everyday.

Went to Gkidz as usual today. But every Sunday's just different and I'm really starting to look forward to Sundays nowadays 'cos I simply get to dance and worship God with such a simple faith. Interceding and praying for the children has become so important every week before the kids arrive. It makes a whole lot of difference. :D But yet 2 months have quickly come to an end and next week I'll be at service! I am delighted to be back there of course, but somehow I don't want to be detached from my girls just like that, for 2 whole months. and of course i will miss little Abigail!! sadnessss.

okay it's already 12am. gonna have to delve into the reason why i started blogging this post in the first place. music!! today i realized even more of the fact that i just simply miss singing. not for any reason. not even God. i just miss this love of mine (of course to be able to sing for God is the ultimate). The past few weeks were chaotic, culminating in last week, which resulted in a pent up climax, regarding this passion. i was being so emo about singing and all. and then realizing that God really does remember His promise to me about this area. and then realizing i had so much anger built up in me with regards to this towards God and a few people. and then having to come face to face with Him, with my disappointment towards Him, having to be honest that i was really angry with some people, and that i was disillusionised by what i am seeing and losing hope in what i cannot see. being doubtful of this gift that i wasn't sure (maybe still am not haha, need more affirmation from God and His people, seriously) is from Him and meant to be used for His glory. i need more answers. and hopefully i will get them soon.

also friends, pls pray for me - i need to protect my head from lies and seeds of doubt and negative thoughts. Romans 12. thanks.