prayer walk

Yesterday's prayer walk training was very much a refresher of sorts even though i hadn't received any official training before. but being part of the NUS prayer cell had taught me much.

But what was most awesome about yesterday morning was how God ignited the spark in us for the visions that He had given to us individually. God spoke so much. Before we sang Jehovah Jireh, He was already telling me the exact same words, that He is my Provider, and that everything I need is from Him.

God often births a vision in our lives only to allow it to die first before the purest version of the vision is manifested. This has happened several times in my own journey. Oswald Chambers observes, "God's method always seems to be vision first, and then reality, but in between the vision and the reality there is often a deep valley of humiliation. How often has a faithful soul been plunged into a like darkness when after the vision comes the test. When God gives a vision and darkness follows, waiting on God will bring you into accordance with the vision He has given if you await His timing. Otherwise, you try to do away with the supernatural in God's undertakings. Never try to help God fulfill His word."

When God's vision is finally birthed, nothing will stop it. Our job is to allow God to birth His vision through us His way and in His timing. (His Vision, His Way, In His Timing TGIF Today God Is First Volume 2, by Os Hillman, 10-27-2008)

We were led to pray about the visions that we heard God told us in the past. Many of us lost that spark of passion because we've not seen anything come out of it. I felt that way about our band and also about my desire of wanting to help children with autism until lately. How true is it that we need to realize that this vision is not ours, but God's and we have to die to ourselves before He can reveal to us what He wants to do.

While praying, He showed me His very heart for the children that I'm gonna work with. I've not seen any of these children yet but God just said that many of their parents are feeling a sense of hopelessness. I began to see His heart for the children and started crying out for them, to intercede for them. I don't know how much I cried but it was just so heartbreaking to see that picture God put in my mind's eye. He re-ignited this vision that had been in my heart since a long time ago and I know without a doubt that it's from Him when Sharon affirmed of it in her prayer for me - "Have you seen the glimpse of that light of where God wants you to go? Are you willing to be that light? Arise and shine, for your light has come."

Isaiah 60:1-2

"Arise, shine, for your light has come, 
       and the glory of the LORD rises upon you.

See, darkness covers the earth 
       and thick darkness is over the peoples, 
       but the LORD rises upon you 
       and his glory appears over you.

Matthew 19:14

Jesus said, "Let the little children come to me, and do not hinder them, for the kingdom of heaven belongs to such as these."

God, I know You're teaching me about trust. Help me to trust You for that call from the company. Help me to trust You about my future. Help me to find security and fulfilment in You.