Answers leh?

I don't know whether to feel puzzled or fed up or confused with people, with things, with theologies, with friends, with everything that's not in agreement. Just am very perplexed. Argh. It's just not a good feeling to have and I'm not usually this way. There's just so many things that I have questions about. With where the church is heading, with where I am heading, with who I am becoming and with who I am right now.

And God has been so good. Been consistently spending time with Him and in His word. But amidst all this job searching, more and more questions just pile up in my head. God, I feel frustrated. Very. I know that this phase I'm entering is gonna be so exciting but God, I don't seem to be getting answers. And I know You won't answer my questions so soon. God, mold my trust in You, teach me to trust in You. God, I submit everything to You, Lord, once again. You are the God of my life, ALL areas of my life, even my career, Lord.

It just dawned upon me after all the excitement that these keys, this blueprint which have been handed to me. It's a heavy responsibility that I cannot handle by myself. God, I am so far from what You have planned for me to become. But Daddy, help me to look to You. You are far bigger than anything else, and I can do everything through Your strength.